drained

over it. over Utah for now, but i don't want to go home. I need a change, and a big life changing one. I know I say this every week, but fuck. I need to experience something I've never experienced before. I thought moving here would do it, or satistisfy me in that way, and it has, and I know I need to give it more time but I'm becoming impatient. I've done it all, except for one major thing most people my age have been through, but for some reason I still don't think I'd want that. I'm dying, I've experimented with everything under the sun, seen everything I've wanted to see, met way too many amazing people, but something's missing. Wow, I have a vadge. Maybe it's just friends I need to share stuff or life with, or it could just be a single person. I don't fucking know anymore.

But, in other news, I am so happy Mimi is here, Wu Thanksgiving was awesome, and my memory from the other night is slowly coming back to me, Thank you Hondo and Terence, even though you don't read this.

I went tubing today with Mimi for opening day, so much fun! I want to go again. Even though I swore off raves, I have also sworn off swearing things off so Mimi and I are going to go to Dreamland 4, for studying purposes of all shapes and sizes. DJ studying, scientific studies...I mean I want to see what it's like here, out of curiosity. I think it will make me feel better and a little less LA/Omahr sick. And what better person to go with than MEEEEEMS. We went to EDC 2008 together, just us, no one to meet up with, and it is still, to this day, the best night of my life. Round 2 perhaps? But with shitty music? yeee.