to mimi love me

 I function 100% better on xanax or klopan than I do normally. They are used for my ADD which comes from performance anxiety which comes from my lack of mother.
   
I am the reason they put the sleepwalking/driving label on the ambien bottle. I flushed all of them once that happened. By far the scariest thing that has ever happened to me. Tiger, I relate.

It's hard for me to become friends with females. I have no problem with you, or being nice to you...I just don't know how? I make an excellent wing women though.

Because I can't respect my lack of mom I have never been able to have a female boss or authority figure. I got fired three weeks into my only job with one.

I know I'm dying, but it still hasn't hit me yet. I still see myself getting married and traveling the world without anything holding me back. This will never be able to happen, and it's the hardest thing for me to realize.

I don't deserve anything I have in my life. I do however deserve this disease. I deserve to be eaten alive because of everyhting I have gotten away with.

I am sick of leading a quadruple life, but it's the only thing I know.

I have only liked three people in my entire life. One is right now. This might be because I have always been cockblocked by my brother and my friends and his friends and my cousin and his friends, but I wouldn't change it.

I love my brothers more than anything.

You need to quit being stupid.

I'm smarter than I come off, I just act dumb because I'm lazy. Yes, it makes sense.

Everyone thought I was smart in school. I was not. I cheated because I was sick and could get away with it. Just because I'm (was) quiet doesn't mean I think or notice things.

I never tell the entire truth.

I'm still waiting for my life to change.

I felt at home at work today. It was my first day. My 60 year old boss smoked me out as a thank you/Christmas gift. 

I am really am just a nice person

I'm over playing hard to get, I'll still be nice and go out of my way to say hi. But don't think you're special.

I don't care.

I'm sick of people asking me for my number cause they want to date. I want friends. I only like one of you. Or maybe not. I don't care. I just want to snowboard.

I need a friend here. Or a hug. Either works.