cxzDC

my goal in life has changed. Not completely, but I am fairly determined. At least for now.

Today when I was in the hospital I was trying to think which is better. I mean they say you have everything if you have health. But what if you do have your health, but don't have your 'everything' to share with anyone? Is it better to be sick with shitty doctors but surrounded by friends and family? I really don't know.

I need a new snowboard. Attempting to save up by being a work-a-holic for the next few weeks.

I'm happy The ER doctor put me back on Xanax until I see my doctor about being completely back on Xanax, I gave Klonopin a try, but it makes me so emotionial, I nod off, and am silent and make  myself feel uncomfortable in situations that don't really matter.

I've been getting the I'm not wanted vibe a lot lately, but I can take a hint.

Usually my new years resolution is to not have a resolution, but lately I have been randomly telling people how I admire them and how they are appreciated. This might come off as creepy or clingy, but life is too short to let that get in the way. So if you get some random thing telling you how much you mean to me and all that bullshit...it's just what I've been doing lately. So I guess my resolution is to not be so reserved when it comes to telling others how I feel about them. LAAAME. But okay.

Please, someone, jump over me on a board so I can take your picture.

Or not. That's okay too.

night <3