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so, I got fired today. I would like my season pass back, I have no idea what will motivate me to get up in the morning if I don't have it. Getting fired was a long time coming, and I hate to dissipoint my dad, but maybe this is good for me. Push me a little bit to either be typical, get a safe job, and make money or jump off a fucking cliff. Career wise. I prefer the cliff. I am so thankful for my father and his patience for me, I would be completely and utterly fucked if it wern't for him and I deserve every lecture that comes out of his mouth, but I have always been that kid. The fuck up. The slow one. The one that 'makes their own way.' Maybe I value street smarts over book smarts, and I look dumb most of the time but I can charm the shit out of anyone which I think is more valuable than doing things 'safely' with a nice resume and a degree.  Or maybe it's the sense of urgency I have had since I was younger to get stuff done, move on, and do stuff for myself, but whatever it is it has gotten me here, for a reason. I hope. It will work out, it always does.

This may look like I self sabotaged myself, again, but I really think I need to find my own way and have always had my own way of doing everything, and it has never been safe, but then again I have always been saved, financially. But I really think I just have to figure my shit out on my own, and that means doing everything for myself, without relying on others or having a job that relates to what I want to do. Even if that makes no sense, but It was getting draining...And it made me not want to take photos.

 I just want to snowboard. Be a dirty park rat. And mooch.

Live, Laugh, DGAF.

Oh and my spit glad is infected. Diabetes, oh how I love thee.